The Van Hamme's

Getting Back to Normal

2009-03-16T14:56:00.006-04:00

I can honestly say the life is finally getting back to normal....whatever that is. We celebrated Joel's birthday and took our annual trip to the beach to visit the Gutherie's. We had a wonderful time. We attempted to play on the beach but it was FREEZING!! We will for sure be taking Ella back this summer.

Joel and I made the decision last week that I would stop taking Tamoxifen (the medicine to prevent breast cancer recurrence). I was really have a rough time with the side effects. The best way I can explain it was the way I felt the week after I had Ella combined with what it must feel like to go through menopause. YUCK!! I cried all the time and was just mean. I felt happy on the inside but I couldn't show it. It was starting to effect all areas of my life. We had a 3 month check-up with my oncologist and expressed our concerns. He had me take a break from the med for 1 month to make sure it was the med that was causing the problem. Within 3-4 days I was my old self again. I had energy, I was laughing, and just felt better. We saw the oncologist again last Monday. I know you're probably thinking "But if it reduces your risk of cancer, Lisa, don't be stupid." That of course was my biggest concern. We talked percentages with the doc and he informed me that because of the surgery I chose and the treatments I had, Tamoxifen only reduces my risk of cancer recurrence by 2-3%. It's just now worth if for 2-3%. So, life really is back to normal. I don't think about cancer everyday and I just feel GOOD!!

Of course, it does make me nervous to think about cancer. I'm learning to let my faith guide me through. A close friend shared this scripture with me from Psalms 4:8 "I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety." Thank you to all who continue to pray for us. We appreciate it so much!

The Hair

2009-02-07T12:02:00.003-05:00

For the first time since my hair fell out, I was actually able to straighten it and have hairstyle. I've been so excited! I can't believe it finally grew long enough. I still like the curls but it is nice to have the hair I've always known back. YEAH!!!!!

Moving on

2009-02-02T21:16:00.003-05:00

I've decided the hardest thing by far after battling cancer is figuring out how to move on with my life. It frustrates me that there is always that little twinge in my mind reminding me what I've been through even if it's just a minute or two everyday . These past few weeks have been difficult. I think it's probably got a little to do with the fact I have my first follow-up appointment with my oncologist. I'm trying to learn how to put that thought of cancer or cancer ever returning away. I think that as more time passes it will get easier to not dwell on it. I don't want to ever forget because remembering reminds me of God's goodness and faithfulness. I had never felt closer to God than during those tough times. Life does go on and we are shaped by our life experiences. God's going to help me figure all this out....

On to bigger and better things....Ella celebrated her 2nd birthday on Jan. 12th. We had a big bash and she had so much fun. My favorite picture from the party was the one I snapped below. She was at the table with her cake eating icing with her spoon. She had no idea anyone was watching and she sure was enjoying herself. It is amazing how fast she has grown. She is such an awesome little girl with the best personality. She loves her friends and she working on learning how to share. However, she was not going to share any of her cupcake with Nora!

I've realized that Ella was getting a little bored with me so I thought I better shake things up. We joined My Gym and she loves going. She also goes to the library with Joel once a week for story time. We've also started to learn our alphabet. We pick a letter for the week and we learn as much as she'll allow about that letter. We make crafts, color, and find the letter anywhere we can. The most rewarding part of this is to see how smart she is. My favorite was when she ran to the door as Joel was getting home from work screaming "Airplane starts with A." Joel and I have already realized she much smarter than either of us!

Happy Holidays

2008-12-13T15:34:00.004-05:00

Well, the holidays are fast approaching and we are having a blast!! Ella is so into Christmas (just like her mommy)! She is getting excited about Santa Claus bringing her presents although, she refuses to get within 20 feet of him. We've had a few crisis moments walking by Santa at the mall. She loves all the lights and her most favorite thing is the blue Christmas tree they have at Target. Of course, Ella loves anything blue right now. Work is busy and going great. December is our busiest month! Everyone is trying to have their baby before the end of the year. Joel is doing great. He has been getting some great management experience the past few months. All in all, we're just enjoying the holiday season. We feel like we missed last year's because I was sick so we are "living it up."

Every year Joel and I exchange ornaments. I wanted to share a picture of the ornament he gave me this year. It brought tears to my eyes. He always does such a good job with gift giving!!

He had this ornament made for me from www.ornamentsandmore.com/ and they did a spectacular job. I have a pretty amazing husband.

My health just keeps getting better and better every day. I posted a recent picture so you all could see the curls. My hair is pretty much out of control right now but at least I have hair!!

We were having a great time a the Christmas lights at the zoo. We were with our friends the Barrett's who will be leaving in 3 weeks for full time missions work in Costa Rica. We are going to miss them so much. I'm especially going to miss Sarah. She is a wonderful friend and has stood by me through thick and thin. Check out their story at www.thebarrettsincostarica.blogspot.com/.

God has been opening some amazing doors for me to share my experience with cancer. I had the opportunity to share a little of my testimony at church a few weeks ago. It seems like every week I meet someone who is fighting cancer right now or get a call to contact someone who is recently diagnosed. I am so excited to help these women. I pray the opportunities continue to arise for me to help other women who are going through their fight with cancer.

One last thing, Ella wanted to share a little song and a Christmas wish with you all. Have a blessed holiday season. Don't take one second for granted.

YEAH!!!!

2008-11-11T10:59:00.006-05:00

We'll it is official....other than I am the worst blogger ever...I am DONE!!! I unexpectedly finished my Herceptin treatments. I thought I had a few more to go but I finished my last treatment 3 weeks ago. I also begged my oncologist to let me get my port out and he agreed so that' been gone for almost 2 weeks now. So it's done!!!!!! You can probably tell I'm a little excited by all the exclamation points. I'm just thrilled to have my life back. No weekly doctor's appointments, 3 hour infusions, or a port. I can wear whatever shirt I want now!! My hair is growing fast and is super curly and thick. I have to wear headbands to hold it down. Here's a picture of Ella and I at the fair on the carousel, of course.

Ella is growing so much and she looks like a toddler now. She talks non-stop and still loves Elmo. We finally got a DVR so she has many more "Elmo's World" shows to chose from. She is such a big helper and loves to help me cook and do dishes. She is a bit of a neat freak and likes to clean up her toys without anyone asking. (She may have a little of my personality). Ella was a bumble bee for Halloween and has continued to wear her costume, usually on a daily basis.

Everything else is going great. Joel's job is going well and I still love work. We are excited for the holidays this year. Last year's Thanksgiving and Christmas wasn't much fun thanks to chemo. We are going to live it up this year. We are even going to get a little crazy and decorate the outside of our house. I know...I know....don't get to excited right? We are looking forward to some great times with friends and family.

I feel so good and ready to take on the world or maybe just a two-year old.

Happy Anniversary!!!!

2008-09-22T12:40:00.004-04:00

Today's the day! One year ago today I was diagnosed with cancer. What a year it has been!!! I am so excited to be almost done with everything. I am so ready to move on. I was reading this morning from a journal I started a few days after my diagnosis. I wrote, "I believe God could just take this cancer if He desires. If not, I will trust Him to take me on this journey. I believe He will guide me, strengthen me, and heal me." The journal entry goes on to say how much peace I felt at that very moment. I get so excited when I think of the testimony I now have and the amazing life God has given me! God has brought me through this experience and I have learned so much. Thank you to all of you who have gone on this journey with me. We can celebrate this day together!!

As many of you may know, Ella had a seizure last Tuesday. She is doing just fine now. It was very scary because she stopped breathing. I was by myself visiting my parents. We had to go by ambulance to the children's hospital in Augusta. Everyone took such good care of us. We don't know what caused the seizure. We have a few more doctors appointments and an EEG in the next few weeks. It didn't stop her one bit. In fact, she has started saying more new words and making sentences that actually make sense. We are just believing it is a one time incident.

Everything else is going great. Joel will be on a normal schedule for 6 weeks while he goes through training for the next level of management. We are planning a trip to the Atlanta zoo and the aquarium in a few weeks. Ella is so excited to finally see a panda!

We received a package in the mail from Wayne and April (Joel's parents). They had sent Ella a gorgeous dress for the fall. She of course had to put it on immediately. They also included some Irish Rovers CD's. I recorded this quick video of Ella showing her true Irish roots. Hope you enjoy!!

Long time....no see

2008-09-05T14:23:00.004-04:00

Yes...we are all doing well. I know it's been too long and I am going down in history as the worst blogger ever. I have found it difficult to have a second to spare chasing Ella around all day. We have had so much to do these past few weeks. Ella is growing so much and she looks like a little girl now. Joel and I have a blast playing with her. She has started talking in complete sentences and you never know what she is going to say. She is very much into playing with play dough, coloring, stickers, and oh yes...the jewelry obsession. The other day we went to the mall and she HAD to wear a bracelet on both arms, a huge necklace, her sunglasses, and of course her pink tutu. I think we might have a little "diva" on our hands!

My hair has grown so much that I actually have a hairstyle now. It is SOOOO curly. I am enjoying how easy it is to fix, although the amount of product I have to use is steadily increasing because I have to control the poof!
We were able to take a trip to Washington a few weeks ago for Joel's sister's wedding. We stayed a few extra days to hang out with the family and see some friends. We had wonderful time. I will admit that flying into Portland, OR and seeing the beautiful landscape made me miss it....a little. Ella had a great time playing with her cousin Isabel and "Papa and Mimi." We were able to spend a day at the zoo in Portland with our friends Milan and Miriam. We got to introduce Ella to their son and had a wonderful time just catching up.
The day before we left, Joel, Ella, Wayne, April (Joel's mom and dad), and myself we able to take a trip to the beach. Ella was so confused when I was putting layers of clothes on her and telling her we were going to the beach. She just kept saying "No Mama, No!" But sand is sand no matter what coast you're on and we've got a little beach bum on our hands!
Since being back, life has continued as normal. I have officially completed all of my reconstructive surgery and LOVE the results. Joel has received another promotion with Lowes and we couldn't be happier. God continues to amaze us!!

On October 4th, Joel and I will be walking in the "Walk for Life." The walk is a local fund raiser for the women and men who are diagnosed with breast cancer in the Columbia area. All the money raised stays local and I saw the benefit first hand last year when I was diagnosed. It is an easy 3 mile walk through downtown Columbia and takes about 3 hours for the walk and festivities. If anyone local is interested in joining with us, please let us know.

Until next time....whenever that may be.......

Great Summer Days

2008-07-06T20:18:00.003-04:00

Life around the Van Hamme household has been very busy the past month. I know many of you check to see how we're doing and you probably thought we fell off the face of the earth. We didn't and we're back better than ever. I'll catch you up as quick as I can:

My surgery sites are healing great and I am so happy with the end result. My plastic surgeon is a miracle worker. My infusions are still going well. I really don't like the Tamoxifen but I'm just dealing with it. The side effects are rough (especially the weight gain). My hair is growing so fast (as you'll see in the pics) and I love it. I think I might turn out to be a short hair girl after this.
Grandpa Herb (Joel's grandpa) came for a visit at the beginning of the month. He took a train to see us, so Ella loved that. Now every time she sees a picture of a train she says "Papa." We had a wonderful visit and are so grateful to have such amazing grandparents. Ella really did like him a lot and we're excited that we get to see him again in just a short month.

Joel and I celebrated our 7th anniversary on June 23rd. I surprised him with a trip to Atlanta to see the Seattle Mariners play the Atlanta Braves. The Mariners only play the Braves every 4 years and it just happened to be the weekend of our anniversary. We had great seats on the third row and proudly wore our Seattle Mariners hats. We were of course only 2 of the 4 Mariners fans there. The Braves won in the last inning but it was still a great game. We stayed at the awesome Marriott Marquis on the 41st floor. The view was amazing. Joel and I got some much needed rest and Ella had a great time spending the night with my mom and dad.

Ella is growing so fast. She says a new word or two every day. Her favorite word is still Joel and now we are "Daddy Joel" and "Mama Joel." It's so cute. We snapped a pic of Ella in her first tool belt. I wonder who bought this toy?

We are trying to get out of the house more now that we can, so we signed Ella up for a swim class. She did great. She kicker her feet, blew bubbles in the water, and even went under water without much fuss. Her favorite trick was to float on her back. She would just relax her head on my shoulder and almost fall asleep. We did learn that she has no fear so I know we are in for some very exciting times!

The best thing we have done this summer is start taking Ella to the "Little Gym." She gets to play with other kids her age and learn fun things like forward rolls and walking on the balance beam. She absolutely loves it. Her favorite thing to do is dance. In fact, she starts dancing when we pull up in the parking lot. Joel recorded a little video of her dance moves. Enjoy!!!

Too Long

2008-05-30T03:22:00.002-04:00

So sorry to all of you. These past few weeks have been a whirlwind. Things have been wonderful and life really is back to normal. Work has been very busy and I have enjoyed getting back to what I love. Ella's adding more words to her vocabulary everyday. Her newest additions are "grandaddy," "yes," "water," and my personal favorite "Joel." She says it all the time and it is the cutest (Joel doesn't think so). It is so amazing how quickly they grow.

I wanted to make sure I blogged today because I will be having my last reconstructive surgery Friday morning. They will just sedate me and the procedure should be pretty quick. In six weeks they will do the tattooing procedure and I will be DONE and looking great!!!! Thanks for your prayers.

Life in Bloom

2008-05-14T14:26:00.004-04:00

Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits- who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's. Psalm 103: 2-5

Even though I try not to think about the idea of a cancer recurrence, sometimes I do. I try to get it out of my mind as soon as possible. Fighting cancer is not only a physical battle but it is also a battle within the mind. I am continuing to discover the balance of knowing I had cancer yet living my life to the fullest everyday. Some days are more difficult then others. I am following all the steps advised by my doctor to prevent cancer in addition to many lifestyle changes. However, I know that my peace can simply be found in above the words of my loving God. He can and has healed my disease. The best part is that is He has blessed my life with so many wonderful things.

Life is really getting back to normal. We are figuring out a little routine with my going back to work. Ella is still a little mad about it and not sleeping very well for Joel when I'm gone. Hopefully she will begin to accept it and start sleeping better. We've been doing a ton of work in our yard and we also FINALLY bought a grill. We broke it in with some great chicken last night. Now all we have left is to get a little grass to grow and we'll be done. My surgery restrictions end on Friday and all will be well because I can vacuum again.

My rose bush is really blooming and my hair is growing like crazy so I thought we should take a picture together. My hair is actually coming in with a lot of blonde and it's not curly. I will not know what to do with straight hair!!!

Oh, I received several questions about my secret to soft towels from the clothesline. Check out the following link for more info: http://www.mysticwondersinc.com/. When you use the laundry ball you don't have to use any laundry detergent. I hang the clothes on the line and when they are dry I put them in the dryer for about 15-20 minutes with the dryer balls. The clothes come out of the laundry very soft and smelling so clean. I love it!

Going Green

2008-05-07T22:17:00.003-04:00

So, Joel has accused me of "going green." I really don't know how it happened. I mean, I lived in the land of "recycle and reuse" for 3 years (the Northwest) and did not recycle one thing. Maybe it all started with the rising cost of gas. Maybe it was my desire to feed my family healthier foods. I really don't know, but Joel's right.

I had Joel build a clothesline in the backyard where I now hang everything to dry. I've even found the secret to not having stiff towels. I know all you who are occasionally house guests will appreciate soft towels. I also bought several bins that I actually labeled cardboard, paper, and plastic and put them in the garage. And, my lowest green moment.....I put Ella in the jogging stroller and WALKED to the store to get a few things!!!! I know...it's like the little green recycling monster has taken over.

As I get used to my new found greenness, I have made a few promises to Joel. I will not hang our undies on the line. There are just some things the neighbors don't need to know. I will allow lights to be turned on but only at night. (Just kidding) Last but not least, Joel can still use hot water to shower. So, in the attitude of my new green counterparts, I encourage you to think of ways to conserve and maybe save yourself a little money.

Spring Fun

2008-05-01T15:13:00.002-04:00

So many of you may not know that I love to garden. I find it therapeutic. I prefer flowers with bulbs and I have an organic veggie garden. I recently planted some trees we pulled up at my mom and dad's house. Ella loves to help me garden. Most of the time she just tries to eat the dirt but she really does love flowers.

I think my love for gardening started with my Granny and Papa. My Granny grew some amazing flowers and my Papa always had the best veggie garden. I remember "shuck'n" corn and "snapp'n" beans while sitting at their aluminum kitchen table or on the porch swing. I spent most of my summers as a child with my grandparents. There is nothing better than eating a tomato fresh off the vine or cutting a watermelon just pulled from the garden. I treasure those times with Granny and Papa. And, every year as my gladiolas bloom I think of my Granny and the wisdom she instilled in me. Granny went to be with the Lord January 12, 2002. (Yes, the same day of Ella's birth). I have often thought of her as I went through the past few months. I could often hear her quoting as she did everyday, "May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer." (Psalm 19:14) I hope I can share with Ella the same wonderful lessons Granny taught me.

Sorry about the nostalgia. Sometimes it just comes out! I thought you might want to see a pic of Ella and her new swing set. She LOVES it!! She slides down the slide by herself and she likes to sit in her clubhouse and look for airplanes. We've had a blast just being outside.

My hair is really starting to come in along with my eyelashes and eyebrows (which fell out 3 weeks ago)! I even have to put product in to keep it from standing straight up! Thank you all for praying for my Grandma. She is doing much better and has returned to the nursing home.

Back to work

2008-04-22T19:46:00.002-04:00

I survived the first few nights back at work. It felt SO good to be back and I didn't forget how to do my job. It was like riding a bike. I still have to be careful because of my most recent surgery but I can do that. I've gotten lots of compliments on my "haircut." I just say "thanks."

We are sad because Joel's dad, Wayne, will be leaving Saturday. He and Ella have had so much fun. I'll have a lot to live up to when he's gone. Ella got a swing set and has been having a blast swinging and going down the slide. We should both have a nice tan this summer because she LOVES to be outside. . We explore in the flowers and by the birdhouses. She loves to watch for planes and the absolute cutest is when she climbs in the clubhouse of the swing set and just sits down. She helped me plant our organic vegetable garden and was covered from head to toe in dirt. She planted a few birdseed and some rocks. We'll see how they grow

My Grandma Doolittle had to go to the hospital last Saturday. She spent a few days in the ICU and is now on a palliative care unit. She is bleeding and they can't figure out what is causing it. She is in no pain and knows that she is in God's hands. Her 91 year old mind is still sharp as ever. Ella and I will be going down to see her this weekend. I would ask that you keep her and my family in your prayers.

Normal life...whatever that is....

2008-04-15T13:39:00.006-04:00

Yesterday, while at the plastic surgeon’s office, I saw a patient who was exactly where I was just 7 months ago. She had received her cancer diagnosis and she had decided her treatment plan. My heart hurt for her as they were scheduling her surgery. She had a look of grief and confusion and her husband just looked sad. As we rode down the elevator together, her and her husband held hands. I felt bad because I stood next to her with my very thin, short hair. I'm sure she was thinking, "That's going to be me." I didn't speak to her at all. I know how she feels. The last thing you need is for someone to tell you it's going to be okay. You feel like your the only person in the world with cancer. So, my resolve was to silently pray for her as the elevator moved . I thought about this encounter throughout the day.

I see people all the time at chemo and we talk cancer. But here was this beautiful women so hurt and confused. She has no idea what is about to happen to her. I realized that as a breast cancer survivor, I can truly help others who are going through this experience. I understand the emotions of breast cancer and felt them all. Maybe that's why this all happened. No, God didn't give me cancer but He did give me strength, healing and a faith that I have never known. As I rocked Ella to sleep last night, I actually thanked God for this experience and for the cancer. I know it sounds crazy. I am so grateful that God loves me so much that He carried me right in the palm of His hand and I desire to be faithful to the direction He wants me to go.

So, what's next? Well, the best news is I return to work TOMORROW night!!!!!!! I have missed it so much. I am nervous because it has been 7 months since I charted, started an IV, coached a laboring patient, etc. But I know I get to ease back in. We are so blessed to have Joel's dad, Wayne, visiting with us for several weeks. He is such a help and will make the transition back to work an easy one. As for the rest of my reconstruction, I have 2 more procedures to go. They will be separated by 6 weeks. By this summer I'll be the new and improved Lisa (and hopefully have a hairstyle)!

As for the blog, it will continue. However, the look will change. We are no longer "just an ordinary family, fighting breast cancer." We are an ordinary family who survived breast cancer! I have some things I want to say. So now.....as I clear my throat....be prepared for my acceptance speech:

To my amazing husband Joel: there is absolutely, no way I could have done this without you. God knew exactly what he was doing that day back in August of 2000 when we met for the first time. You kept me laughing which was the key to my recovery. You prayed with me, hugged me, and allowed me to cry even if I woke you in the middle of the night. You also allowed me to express whatever feelings I was having and gently led me back to the fact that God would never leave me. You took care of Ella, the house, the dogs, and me during those times I couldn't all while working 5 days/nights a week. I love you more than words can express.

To my "Ella Bella:" you are the reason I got out of bed. You kept me smiling because who could be depressed when you look at that beautiful smile. I cherish every minute I had to focus 100% on you. You were a champ and I appreciate that you started sleeping through the night during all of this too! Thank you for being such a good baby and for loving me no matter how short my hair was. You are my sunshine!

To our parents: thank you could never be enough. I appreciate the babysitting, driving me to appointments, cleaning, doing laundry, and encouraging words. I'm sure you all didn't mind getting to spend a little extra time with Ella. Family truly is the most important thing in this life.
To Candice and Alyssa: thank you for being such amazing friends. Thank you for crying with me and for letting me talk out all my frustrations. Thank you both for taking time out of your busy schedules to spend several days with me. I love you both.
To our extended family, friends and church family: thank you for the meals, cards, and support. Joel and I were continually overwhelmed with the love and support we received from you. We are blessed.
To my girls at work: thanks for not forgetting about me. Thank you for the phone calls, cards, gifts, and laughs.
To Deb in Michigan: thanks for all the words of encouragement you left on my blog. Who would have known that someone I have never met would play such an important part of my cancer fight? Although we may never meet in this life, I want to give you a great big hug when we meet one day in heaven.
To all of you who prayed for us and supported us: thank you is not enough. I felt your prayers and could not have been so strong without you.
To all of the cancer survivors and cancer patients I have met: I am honored to join this elite group. You all are an inspiration.

From the words of Deb in Michigan shared with me, "I get up. I walk. I fall down. Meanwhile, I keep dancing!" Believe me I am DANCING!!!

Surgery Update

2008-04-04T18:32:00.002-04:00

The surgery went very well today. I'm feeling pretty good and I'm not in much pain. I've just been sleeping since we got home. My Mom arrived last night to stay with Ella today. My Dad will be arriving shortly and they will stay with us until Tuesday. Grandpa Wayne will be in on Tuesday to stay for 3 weeks. We are so blessed to have amazing family. Thanks to all of you for your prayers today. There will be more to come and I promise it will not take me a month to update our blog!

I didn't forget......

2008-04-03T14:33:00.006-04:00

I know many of you think I forgot about my blog. Well, I haven't at all but chasing around a little girl changes everything! Ella decided last week she would start walking and she was off! I'm so glad she held up her end of our deal to start walking after I finish chemo. Walking definitely takes motherhood to a different level! Joel took this picture of her picking flowers which is one of her new favorite things to do. She also likes to collect rocks.

We had a wonderful Easter and we were able to spend some time with my family in Augusta. Ella went to her first Easter egg hunt and did super. She found one egg! I don't think she cared a bit though. We jumped on the moonwalk and slid down a huge slide several times (I had a blast too)!

Everything with me is going awesome! I feel amazing. My energy is back and several people have told me the sparkle is back in my eyes. I appreciate everyday so much more and I am so grateful to feel good. I'm continuing to receive my Herceptin infusions every two weeks and I've started taking Tamoxifen. I am feeling no side effects from either one. I am so privileged that I continue to meet amazing cancer survivors. Just this week a young women came up to me at Walmart and asked "Do you have cancer?" Turns out, she also had breast cancer and has finished her chemo and is now receiving radiation. She receives her treatment at SCOA also. She told me about a meeting the next day for women who were receiving Herceptin. I stopped by after my infusion and met 2 other young women with breast cancer. We all had similar stories, similar surgeries, similar treatment and they are all moms too! They were so fun and upbeat. I can't wait to see what God is going to do with this! My hair has also started growing. I actually have a hairline!

I would like to ask for your prayers one more time. On Friday morning (April 4th), I will be having the second reconstructive surgery. This is the surgery where I get my permanent implants. YEAH!!!!!!! I can't wait for the tissue expanders to be gone. My surgery is at 7:00AM and should last about 2 hours. It will be an outpatient procedure so I should be home about lunch time. I thought this point would take forever to get to and here I am now. I can't believe it. God is so faithful! I will try to have Joel or Candice post a message after my surgery tomorrow. Thanks for your support and prayers!

Better and Stronger

2008-03-13T10:09:00.004-04:00

I am feeling so much better. I had a rough time for several days. I picked up that stomach virus going around but I couldn't shake it. Joel and Ella both had it for about 24 hours but I had it for 4 days. After my last chemo I did very well. My mom was here to help and I was able to get tons of rest. By Sunday afternoon I was starting to feel very bad. On Monday Joel went to work and I laid on the floor all day. Thank goodness I have a wonderful child who plays on her own. By the time Joel got home I was done and crying. He said "Call your mom and go to bed!" Once again Mom rescued us and came back up and stayed until Thursday. Your a life-saver Mom!!!

We are now all well and I've started to feel somewhat normal. The metallic taste is gone and food actually tastes good again. My energy is back and I'm ready to take on the world. Well, maybe not that but I feel pretty good! I am still receiving my weekly Herceptin but I will go to every 2 weeks after next week.

My next surgery is scheduled for April 4th and I am so ready. After about 2 weeks of recovery, I will be able to return to work. I will be restricted on doing certain things like carrying Ella on my hip, doing laundry, vacuuming, and lifting. Dr. Haines said he would add anything else I didn't want to do! I will have to be careful for 6 weeks after surgery because one wrong move can cause a separation of my muscle. Yikes!!

Thank you for all your prayers the past 2 weeks. I thought I would share how absolutely adorable our daughter is. Just press the play button. I hope you enjoy!

Please Pray

2008-03-05T09:35:00.001-05:00

I (Candice) received a call from Lisa today. She was at the doctor getting fluids and it appears that she has a virus of sorts in addition to her chemo sickness. That’s a WHOLE week of being sick. She wants you to know that she’s okay, but isn’t feeling well at all. Please keep Lisa in your prayers.

More to come soon.

It's OVER!!!!

2008-02-27T20:28:00.005-05:00

Just wanted to let you all know we made it!!! I couldn't have done it without all the prayers and support from so many of you. We all went through this together. Now, we head into the last few days I'll have to feel bad and then it's really over! I thought you might want to celebrate with me and hear the "Last Chemo Day Song" sung by the amazing nurses at SCOA. Thank you for your prayers the next few days. God bless.

Perseverance

2008-02-26T08:56:00.010-05:00

First, I have to say Happy Birthday to my husband, Joel. You are an amazing man. You keep me laughing and you stand by my side to help keep me strong. You are an incredible father and your walk with God is inspiring. You are an excellent provider for your family and your positive attitude is contagious. I am so blessed to have you in my life. I love you!

Ella and I made our TV debut this morning on "Live with Lucas." We had a blast. It was great to meet Lucas and so many other wonderful people associated with Relay for Life. Of course, we met more inspiring cancer survivors. I feel honored to be a part of this elite group. I hope you all will join me in the Relay for Life this year. If your not local, there should be a Relay for Life event in your area. It is a great way to not only raise money for the American Cancer Society, but also to raise awareness about cancer.

We were able to celebrate Joel's birthday a little early this past weekend. We visited our friends, the Guthrie's, in Murrel's Inlet. It is always so wonderful to be around their family. Ella had a blast being with the girls. It was just nice to decompress. We needed it before we headed into this last big week!

My last chemo treatment is tomorrow. After this week, my visits to SCOA will not have to be as frequent. It is bittersweet going into this last treatment. I'm so excited I'll be done but I'm not looking forward to the bad days after treatment. Although, this is the last time I have to go through it. My mom will be coming to stay with Ella and I on Thursday and my Dad will be joining us on Friday. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to know that Ella is in such good hands while I rest.

This past week Joel and I were inspired by the bird feeders at my oncologist office and we decided to put up a few of our own. We now have 3 bird feeders in different locations in our back yard. I was worried the birds wouldn't find the food but they have. We have seen cardinals, blue jays, finches, and a few pigeons (and a squirrels too). It is so nice to walk outside in the mornings and hear all the birds singing. The dogs love it and the true hound has come out in them. We are also trying to get the yard ready for spring. I'll be planting a few more bulbs and getting the soil ready for my organic garden. I can't wait to have all those wonderful tomatoes like I had 2 summers ago!

The last thing today is I want to say CONGRATULATIONS to my sister-in-law Katie. She got engaged last week and we are so happy for them. We are so excited to make a trip to Washington in August to see everyone!

Please keep my in your prayers this week as we finish up with chemo. I was dwelling on these scriptures today and thought I would share:

James 1:2-6, 12

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.

12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.

The Light at the End of the Tunnel

2008-02-15T10:14:00.003-05:00

Yes...I am almost done with my chemo! I apologize to those who check frequently for updates. My last big chemo on Feb. 2nd really got me good and I was down for about a week. I got some help this week when I went for my weekly infusion. Medicine and IV fluids are amazing!! This last big chemo was a little rough on my body and my hemoglobin (iron level) dropped significantly. (It was 7.7 for all my nurse friends)!!!! That is pretty low. No wonder I felt so drained! The nurses gave me a great shot of some hemoglobin boosting medicine and this week it was back up to 11.1. (Still a little low but much, much better).

I have one more to go on February 27th and the bad chemo will be done. Believe me when I say, I AM READY TO BE FINISHED!!!!! I will then start a medicine called Tamoxifen and continue to recieve Herceptin until November. I'd love some suggestions from anyone who has taken Tamoxifen. I'm a little nervous about taking it. The Tamoxifen is taken for 5 years and greatly reduces the chance of a recurrence of cancer. Of course, there will continue to be frequent visits with the oncologist, scans and blood work, but NO MORE CHEMO!!!!!

All is well with Ella and Joel. Ella's battling a cold this week and teething. She hasn't skipped a beat though. She has started climbing on everything which is interesting because she isn't walking yet. I found her sitting in the rocking chair last night. I guess she was ready for bed! We had a wonderful Valentine's Day. Joel had the past few days off and we just relaxed. It was great. Next weekend we are headed off to the beach for a little R&R and to celebrate Joel's birthday.

For all the local Columbia people, Ella and I are going to be on TV! We have been invited by the American Cancer Society to help promote Relay for Life on a local morning show "Live with Lucas." I am very honored they would ask me to share my story and bring Ella. We will be on the show Tuesday, February 26th on the 6:15 AM segment. I know....it's early!!

By the way, I loved hear from some you. I'm going a little stir crazy. You can only vaccum the floor so many times!!!

Rejoice!!!!

2008-02-01T13:11:00.001-05:00

I want to begin this post by saying....ELLA IS SLEEPING THROUGH THE NIGHT!!!!!!! Joel and I have dreamed of this day and it is finally here!!! She just started sleeping in her crib, in her nursery and all night long last Saturday. I don't even know what to do. She is so much happier and rested. It is amazing! She is also taking great naps. I've been able to get so much done and even exercise everyday! YEAH!!!!!

Yesterday, I had a visit from one of my very good friends from college Kathy (Ross) Garvin. We had such an awesome visit. Her little boy, Luke, is precious. We caught up on the last 10 years. We had a lot to talk about!! Thanks for coming Kathy!

I also wanted to share a really neat opportunity I had this week. My chemo nurse, Dusty, asked me a few weeks ago if I would be willing to go with her to a Relay for Life meeting and share my story. The Relay for Life is sponsored by the American Cancer Society. They wanted to have someone who was going through treatment now share their experience. I was honored that out of all the patients she sees on a weekly basis, she asked me. I shared briefly what it's like to have cancer and recieve chemo. It was wonderful and the group responded so well. I also had the privelage of meeting several amazing cancer survivors. After the meeting, I met one of the VP's from the hospital where I work and he asked if I would be willing to share my story with employees of Palmetto Health. Of course I responded, "Yes!!!!" After he spoke with me, a regional employee for the ACS asked me if I would be willing to share at other Relay for Life meetings in the area! I'm so honored that people would want to hear my story and that I truly could make a difference in the fight of cancer. Oprah here I come!!!!!!

Ella's Big Day

2008-01-22T13:43:00.000-05:00

We successfully celebrated Ella's first birthday last Saturday. She was a little apprehensive about the birthday cake but as you can see she got the hang of it. She of course had to go straight to the tub! While we were all eating our taco's, Ella decided it was time to open her presents and took it upon herself to start without us. We looked over and she was pulling a gift out of a bag. She didn't want to wait! She has had so much fun playing with her new toys and books. Thank you to all of you who celebrated with us. Check out our flickr site for more pictures of the FIESTA!

I made it through one more treatment on Wednesday. Two more treatments to go!!! I'm so ready to be done. Some good news is my hair stopped falling out and is actually growing back. I guess that chemo couldn't get the best of me!!!

All else is well. Ella is still not trying to walk. She is content to crawl where she needs to go and that's fine with me. We have her 1 year check-up on Thursday and I can't wait to see how much she's grown. Joel's job is continuing to go well. He has actually gotten a chance to work in the garage on some projects. Both my grandparents have had to be in the hospital in the past two weeks. They are both doing better and home now. We are heading down to Augusta on Saturday to celebrate my Papa's 90th birthday. It will be great to see some family we haven't seen in a while.

We got word this past week that the insurance company has some issues paying for some of my treatment. Please help us pray this all works out. I'm not worried but it doesn't hurt rally the troops. Also, please continue to pray that God will give me strength to finish these treatments with a good attitude. I'm ready to feel like myself again! Thanks for the prayers!!!

A New Year

2008-01-04T20:25:00.000-05:00

Happy New Year to you all!!! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday. We had a wonderful Christmas, Birthday, and New Year! Ella had a very exciting first Christmas! My extremely talented friend Candice took this picture of Ella on Christmas Eve. I know I'm a little partial but she really is a beautiful little girl! She had fun at all the parties and family activities. She was a trooper through all the craziness of Christmas. We had a wonderful time in Augusta with my family. We were able to see many of our friends and family and Ella had a great time with Nanna and Grandaddy! Ella had so many gifts to open Christmas morning that she got tired and had to take a nap. I think we had more fun then she did.

We are officially halfway done with my big chemo. This last chemo was a little easier because I just rested. I didn't try to keep going like I've done in the past. I also found that sitting in my parents jet-tub helped tremendously with the joint pain. I will be returning to Augusta for a few days after my next treatment not just for the tub but help with Ella too.

This last round of chemo will probably release the last little bit of hair I have. My eyelashes and eyebrows are hanging on (thank goodness)! I've gotten used to wearing hats although sometimes I just get to hot and have to take them off. I get some strange looks but oh well. I meet with my oncologist next Wednesday to discuss how all my treatment is going. It feels good to be halfway through all this. My last big treatment will be February 27th if all continues to go so well. My plan then is to hopefully have my second reconstructive surgery and then return to work. I will continue to receive Herceptin until November and then we will really be done!!!

We are preparing for Ella's big first birthday next Saturday. We are having a FIESTA!! We've invited some of her friends from church and family. We can't believe it's already been a year. What a blessing Ella is to our lives.

As Joel and I prepare for the year ahead, we don't make resolutions. We look at the past year and give ourselves a life/spiritual/relationship check-up. There is always room for improvement so we decide what goals we set for ourselves in the upcoming year. As we say good-bye to the Year 2007, what a life changing year it has been. We've become parents, lost a lot of sleep, changed jobs, and fought cancer. We are stronger for it and forever our lives will be changed. We are excited to see the adventure God takes us on in 2008!

Emotions

2007-12-18T13:45:00.000-05:00

I now have 2 big chemo's under my belt with 4 more to go. Now that I'm in the middle of my treatment and losing my hair, I'm forced to deal with the emotions that come with cancer. Yes, I went through the normal 5 stages of grief when I was first diagnosed, but this is different. This is the day in and day out of fighting. Life of course has gone on. I still have dirty diapers to change and Christmas presents to buy. In no way have I tried to suppress how I feel, but it is just not something I would talk about. Because most of you know me well and are going through this fight with me, I thought you should know where my thoughts are.

First, I will say that other then right after my diagnosis I have not had one feeling of sadness. I haven't struggled with depression partly because Joel will not let me and partly because anytime I even think about getting sad I just look at Ella. She has no idea what's going on. She doesn't even care that Mom and Dad now have the same haircut. She looks into my eyes and smiles. Who could get sad with that?

I will say that the one emotion I feel time and time again is anger. Let me follow that by saying not once have I been angry at God. God has been my protector, my healer, my peace. I'm angry at the circumstances. At 29 I should be thinking about my family, my job, and my friends. Instead, I'm going to chemo. I was talking with Grandpa Herb yesterday and he asked if I ever got sad. When I told him, "No, just angry." He said "Well, that's because you're a fighter." And you know, I am! I'm not going to let some stupid tumor get the best of me. Yes, cancer stinks and there could be so much to complain about. (That's why I sit in the corner at chemo. I don't want to hear it). What good would it do to complain? Not only would I be miserable but everyone around me would be too.

I will be honest and say that I do struggle with worry. It's the most prevalent when I feel really bad. I worry about how I'm going to take care of Ella or if I'm going to throw up all night. If I allow my mind to get the best of me I worry that we will never be able to have more children or that the cancer will come back. After this last chemo treatment the worry got the best of me. As I took a walk to get some fresh air and pray. As I was walking I noticed the sparrows flying around a bird feeder. God reminded me of the verse from Luke 12:6-8 that says, "Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." If God cares so much about these little birds, how much more does He care for me! God will take what was meant for bad and turn it into good. I don't have to worry about anything now or in the future. God's got it covered. (God doesn't have to worry about counting the hairs on my head for a while so, He'll have time to take care of all the other stuff.)

I use this blog mostly for updates but I want you to know the other stuff also. Joel and I believe that pray works. We've seen firsthand how powerful prayer is. I know I've said it before but I could not do this without the love and support from all of you.

Now for the updates (HaHaHa)......

Joel's job is going great. There is a lot of work to be done but he can handle it. Ella has started pulling up. I've asked her to wait until February 27th (my last big chemo) to walk but I don't think it will happen. She's added some new words to her vocabulary like "apple," "all done," and the best is "uh-oh." She thinks it's fun to say it before she drops something. We went to the Christmas lights at Riverbanks Zoo last weekend with my parents. Ella sat in Santa's lap without any tears. It was so fun! Joel and I were able to go to my work holiday party after the zoo. We couldn't stay long but it was so wonderful to see all the girls from work. I miss you guys SO MUCH!!

Ella and I are headed to Augusta Friday for the holidays. Joel will be joining us on Sunday and we will celebrate Christmas. Then, on my 30th birthday (Dec 26th) I get big chemo #3. That will be the halfway mark! Whoo Whoo!! Oh and I almost forgot.... Joel gave me a great haircut on Monday! I love it!!

In case I don't get a chance to blog before the holidays I hope you all have a blessed Christmas! We love you!!!

SURPRISE!!!

2007-12-08T13:29:00.000-05:00

So last night Joel, Ella and I headed to what I thought was our annual Christmas party with friends from church. Turns out, it was a surprise 30th birthday party for me. (I know, I don't look a day over 20). I was definitely surprised! Joel, with the help of my friends Sara and Rebekah pulled it off without a hitch. There were so many of our wonderful friends there including my parents, my little brother, my adopted mom Brenda, and our great friend Denny. I had a blast at the party. The food was awesome and the gifts were perfect. I received gift cards, books, warm hand-made slippers, and even a bag of presents compiled by my friends to take to chemo. There is one present for each big chemo day I have left. Thank you everyone who attended and to those who wanted to be there but were under the weather. I feel honored to have such amazing friends and family.

In other news...I did well with my chemo on Wednesday. Adjusting the dose of my medicine seemed to help a great deal with the stomach problems. I also went in on Friday for some IV fluids to "tank me up" for the weekend. I think the worst part about the "after chemo" is the joint pain. I feel like a 95 year old woman. It only lasted a few days last time so hopefully by Monday I'll be feeling better. I'll be in Augusta for the weekend with my parents and will return to Columbia on Tuesday.

I also wanted to share with you all how good God is. This week we received an unexpected bill for our neighborhood association. Because I'm still on disability from work, we have just enough for monthly bills, groceries and gas. We didn't want to have to dip into savings because that money is for the medical bills starting to roll in. Joel asked God to show us the best way to handle this on Tuesday night. On Wednesday morning when my Dad arrived to take me to chemo, he had a huge poster in his hands. The poster was from the faculty at the school where he is principal. The poster was covered with gift cards for groceries, gas, restaurants and even cash. We could not believe the generosity. Once again God has provided. Thank you Lewiston Elementary staff!!!!!

I'll end this post thanking all of you who are supporting our family through this time. Going through the battle with cancer could be unbearable, but we find so much strength in your love and support. We must give all the glory to God for all that He is doing through this and for the ways He has provided. We pray our lives will be a testimony of the faithfulness and goodness of the God we serve.

The Great Hair Exodus

2007-12-03T13:28:00.000-05:00

So....the Van Hamme's didn't fall off the face of the earth. Things have been so busy. We said goodbye to Grandpa Wayne last Tuesday (we miss you...especially Ella)! We had a few days to prepare for a visit from my wonderful friend Alyssa and her youngest daughter, Abigail. Alyssa was my roommate in college, and her and her husband Cameron are some of our best friends. We were so excited to have them come, although Cameron, Gracie and Olivia couldn't join them.

The girls played so well together and as always I just love having Alyssa around. It was perfect timing for her to come this past weekend. Last Friday was the day that will be remembered as the "Great Hair Exodus." My hair just said, "We've had enough...I'm out." And believe me out it has come! I was giving my head a little scratch on Friday and when I brought my hand back down I had a small handful of hair. We had decided when I knew for sure it was going I would get a shorter haircut. Joel and Ella went with me for moral support. Here is the after picture:

I have to say I'm not a big fan of the haircut, but it's just all part of the adventure. I've learned quickly (thanks to Joel) that the easiest way to handle some of the tough stuff is to laugh about it. And believe me we've all had some good laughs this weekend. I think we've decided I either look like my younger brother Brice with earrings or an elf. The elf look is perfect for the holidays anyway and I guarantee the Santa hat will be worn proudly. I do also understand that the shorter my hair gets the bigger my earrings need to get.

All joking aside, I really am doing okay with it. It was a little bit hard at first to see the hair falling out. I guess I was a little more emotionally attached to my hair then I thought. It will grow back though and at least I'll know how to fix it when it starts to come back in. I am going to start wearing my hats too.

I had my last tissue expansion today. Whoo Whoo!! The process has gone flawlessly and my final reconstruction surgery will be scheduled as soon as I finish my big chemo. Wednesday is my big chemo day. Dr Butler is going to adjust my medicine some because I've had some random days where I can't stop throwing up. It's lovely. He may even have me come back on Thursday to get some extra IV fluids to "load me up" in case that happens again. I'm thankful now I know what to expect with the big chemo days. My dad will be accompanying me on Wednesday and then I'll be heading to Augusta this weekend. We are so excited that Joel will be starting his new position on Saturday. Please say a little prayer for him. He will have to work a late night on Saturday so that's why I'm heading to Augusta. my parents will be helping us this weekend because my tough days are Friday and Saturday. Plus, they'll get a little Ella time which will be so fun.

The other exciting happenings are that Ella is crawling all over the place. She of course loves to crawl to the dog bowls and we've caught just before her first sample of dog food several times. She's got her first top tooth. She is saying tons of words like hi, mama, dada, Ab (for Abby) and Bo. We've been working on "HO HO HO Merry Christmas" but so far we've gotten just "HO." As always, Ella is so much fun and I just love every second being a mom.

After Chemo

2007-11-20T19:53:00.000-05:00

Sorry to all who check our blog frequently for updates. Let me just say that chemo is no joke. These past few days have been pretty tough. I did well the day after chemo but by Friday afternoon I was starting to feel the effects of the medicine. By Saturday I was out for the count. Thankfully, Grandpa Wayne was here to take care of Ella. I don't remember much because some of the anti-nausea meds give you short term memory loss. I just remember I slept most of the day. The nausea eased up by Monday. Needless, to say my appetite wasn't effected to much. The part that is the hardest is the fatigue and joint pain. It just feels like you have the flu. I'm not complaining though. The side effects were so much better then I thought they would be. At least now we know what to expect and what to plan for.

We've learned we'll probably need some babysitting help....so all of you that have offered you'll be getting a call soon. Since Ella is crawling all over the place she needs constant supervision. She's already tried to climb up the Christmas tree! Ella and I were having a little fun one day trying on some hats I bought in case my hair falls out. She is such a little nut! She has definitely got her Daddy's sense of humor!

Speaking of Joel....he interviewed for an upper management position yesterday and we found out today that he got the job! YEEEAAAAHHH! He will be transferring to a store in Northeast Columbia and will be managing the departments he really wanted. What an answer to prayer!!

Grandpa Wayne (Ella calls him "Pa") had to take Ella on her first Carousel ride. They rode it 3 times in a row because every time it stopped she cried and wanted more. They had a blast. Check out our flickr site for the new pictures.

Tomorrow we go for our weekly chemo infusion. This medicine that I'm getting weekly is suppose to have no side effects. I'm glad. I don't need any interference with my "turkey eat'n." We hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving (and you find good sales on Friday)!

Chemo Day

2007-11-15T17:03:00.001-05:00

We made it! Chemo wasn't that bad. I tolerated all the medicine very well. They even gave me a little Ativan to make me more comfortable. Hehehehe.... What made the whole experience so great were two nurses who will be caring for med every time I go for chemo. The picture above are my nurses. They like to laugh and joke a lot, so I had a great time. Of course, what also made it so good was I got spend 8 hours straight with Joel. We talked, played cards, ate snacks, just had fun. The oncology center is amazing and the room where I receive chemo it so bright and happy. You overlook woods, a pond, and birds eating from bird feeders. I was very relaxed.

Today I don't feel to bad. I just feel a little "run down." I'm taking 5 different medicines for nausea, so that's under control. I've just rested quite a bit today and of course Grandpa Wayne hasn't minded at all. I've started to have a little weird taste in my mouth but it hasn't stopped me from eating. All in all it's not so bad. Tomorrow could be hard. The nurses have told me for some people the first day after chemo is usually worse. If I loose my hair, they told me to anticipate about 3-4 weeks before it happens. The list of those who would like to go bald with me is building. Feel free to join....just kidding.

In about 5 days my blood counts will drop and I might feel a little crummy. They gave me a shot which I gave myself today that is suppose to help keep your blood count up. I just can't thank you all enough for all the prayers yesterday. Once again we are overwhelmed with all the love and support.

On a different note, Joel applied for an upper management position at a Lowes in town. We are praying that if this is God's time for that then he will get the job...and a raise. Yeah!!!! Ella has started crawling all over the place. She is giving high-fives and clapping her hands. It is the cutest thing I've every seen!!!!

D-Day

2007-11-14T08:09:00.000-05:00

Well, Joel and I are off to start the chemo. We start this morning at 9:00 AM and they've told me to anticipate the first session to last about 5 hours. My stomach is in knots but at least I slept well last night. We went to dinner at Ruby Tuesday's last night for my "last meal." Most people have told me that with the chemo you have a metallic taste in your mouth and food doesn't taste so good. As you all know, I LOVE to eat. I made sure I got a great meal before all the metal. Joel's also taking me for breakfast this morning. I'm just living it up! Please keep our family in your prayers today. Thanks!

Love,
Lisa

Belly Laughs

2007-11-10T21:13:00.000-05:00

Grandpa Wayne (Joel's dad) arrived on Tuesday evening. When Ella and I picked him up from the airport, she screamed and screamed. She screamed all the way home. Then, I put her in her highchair and she decided she liked him...a lot!!! Wayne hasn't seen Ella since she was 5 weeks old. He is having so much fun and wearing Ella out! She's sleeping 5 or 6 hours straight at night!!! Thanks Grandpa! I've added a few pictures of the two of them to the flickr site. Click here.

We took Grandpa and Ella to the zoo. The above video is something we thought you might enjoy. It's a little fuzzy but the sound is the best part. She is so much fun! I think she believes that all animals are puppies. Every animal we saw....the zebras, the birds, the turtles, the anaconda all got her little "awww." We are so grateful that Wayne could join us for a few weeks.

This week is the big week. I go to the hospital on Monday afternoon to have a port placed. The port will be the way I will receive chemo. This is used in place of getting IV every time I get chemo. The chemo can really mess your veins up making it very difficult to get an IV in place. The port is an excellent option and will hopefully stay in place until all my chemo is complete.

Then....on Wednesday the chemo begins. I can honestly say that this is the part I'm the most nervous about. As many of you know, I'm not much of a medicine taker and I try to take care of my body because it's the only one I get. So, the thought of receiving such strong medicine really scares me, along with all the possible side effects. I am most nervous about the fatigue and nausea. I still have a little one to take care of. Of course, I was nauseated the first 5 months of my pregnancy and I survived! I've been doing a little research and found out that what may help the fatigue most is exercise. I've trusted God all along but this is the time when my faith has to be strong. I believe that God will give me the strength and perseverance to get through.

Your continued prayers are greatly appreciated. Thanks to all of you who care enough to check our blog to see what's going on and have committed to supporting us and praying for us!

All the stuff...

2007-11-01T16:56:00.000-04:00

Phew!!!!!!! What a busy day we had on Wednesday! So....I'll start here....We saw Dr. Butler (the oncologist) and he was dressed up like a Dallas Cowboy cheerleader. It was HILARIOUS! We discussed my chemo treatment plan and this is what it will consist of....

I will be receiving a combination of taxotere and cytoxan for 6 treatments. I'll receive a treatment every 3 weeks to total 18 weeks. I named the drugs so that any of you that have had these can give me any pointers, that would be greatly appreciated! Once I complete the 'big guns' I will be receiving herceptin for one year. We don't really know right now how I will be receiving it, but from what I've been told, patients tolerate this drug very well.

I met with a chemo-educator and she went over what I can expect. My first chemo-session will be Wednesday, November 14. The first session will last about 5 hours to make sure I tolerate it all well, but after that, the sessions won't last as long. She told me that I can expect hair loss, so we have a sign up sheet for all of you who are going to go bald with me. She gave me some great ideas on different foods and supplements that will help me tolerate the chemo. Again, if anyone has any advice from experience, I would love to hear from you. I have been very impressed with my oncologist and the oncology center. The nurses that will be administering my chemo will be the same two nurses every time. This helps me to rest easy knowing that they will know me personally.

I will say that I am a little shell-shocked after receiving all of this information, but God has been faithful to me thus far, and I know that He will continue to give me the strength and the peace that I need every day.

They removed my drains today...and THEN...they told me I couldn't take a shower for another 24 hours!! Regardless, I'm happy their gone, because they were really starting to get uncomfortable. Dr. Haines (plastic surgeon) said that I was healing beautifully and they will begin the tissue expansion next week.

The most important thing is that Ella went to her 9 month check up. We met her new pediatrician and we LOVED her! Ella weighed 23 lbs, 2 oz and she was 30 inches long. Dr. Thomas told us she was the average height of a 14 month old. At least my arms will be stronger for it.

Ginger, one of the girls I worked with, brought us a wonderful meal last night and made sure our bellies were nice and full for the Fall Festival...We had a great time there and we've posted a couple of pictures on our flickr site. Click here

Joel arrived home this afternoon and boy were we glad to see him! Ella had a giggle fest when she saw him. He completed his training with flying colors and now we pray that the right position will become available locally.

Sorry.....

2007-10-30T15:27:00.000-04:00

I apologize tremendously to all you who check frequently to see how things are going. It's been a week since I last posted. We've been busy changing house guests and getting ready for the next wave. Heather and Isabel left Saturday and we miss them! It has been almost 2 years since we had seen Heather and we realize what we are missing! Joel and I got the house cleaned up...well he did most of the work. I was just bossy.

We were able to attend church Sunday morning. It was awesome to see all our friends and the sermon was great too. My mom arrived Sunday afternoon. Joel had to leave for a few days to go to Charlotte for upper management training for Lowes. He has been in training since before all the cancer happened. During everything he has managed to watch recorded classes and take tons of tests (and of course pass with flying colors)!! This week is the last part of training and he will be able to move to upper management.

My dad will arrive today to stay for a few days. I still have to have a chauffeur because I can't drive yet. I'll be seeing the oncologist tomorrow and the plastic surgeon Thursday. I should be getting my drains out Thursday and then a long, hot shower! I thanked God this morning that he helped someone create a shower. I really HATE taking a bath.

I will try to post an update on Thursday after I see the oncologist. Ella also sees her doctor tomorrow for her 9 month appointment on Wednesday and then of course we have to go to the fall festival at church. (many cute costume pics to follow) I know you all are thinking, "Lisa slow down!" I promise I am taking it easy. That's why I called in extra reinforcements to get us through the next few days. My body pretty much just stops when it's time to rest. Thank you all for your continued prayers.

P.S......
I posted a few new pictures on the flickr site. Also, Candice has posted some amazing pictures of the Walk for Life on her blog. Please check it out. Just click the tab on the upper right corner that says Candice and Daniel. Until next time....

One Month

2007-10-22T19:22:00.000-04:00

Today marks the one month anniversary of my diagnosis. God has worked in amazing ways. It is hard to believe so much has happened in a short amount of time. I'm already almost a week post-surgery. I am so thankful God gave us the best doctors who worked so quickly to begin my treatment. We saw the plastic surgeon today. They removed the dressing but the drains have to stay another week. I was so pleased with the surgery results and I'm healing quickly.

We want to say "thanks" to all who have brought meals this week. It was so helpful. Thank you Mom and Heather for all your help with Ella. I've been able to get lots of rest because she has been in great hands! (I promise to keep resting)!!

I thought this picture was the absolute cutest! My in-laws (Wayne and April) sent this double stroller. The girls love it!! They like the way it tastes too! We promise there will be more cute pictures to follow.

Quick Update....

2007-10-20T17:31:00.000-04:00

All is well. I tell you what....surgery is tough. I've pretty much just slept for the past few days. Of course, I could be making up for the 9 months Ella hasn't let me sleep! The pain is getting better everyday. I'm just taking muscle relaxers now. The muscle spasms can be pretty intense so the meds help so much. I'm pretty foggy in the head so I apologize if the words don't come out right. By the way, the bear in the picture was a gift from the hospital. You use it when you wear your seat belt to prevent the belt from rubbing on you. Cute!!!

We got the final report from the doctor yesterday. There was absolutely no sign of cancer in the lymph nodes or the right breast. My tumor graded a 9 on a scale of 3 to 9. That just means it was a very aggressive tumor which we caught early. We are still waiting on one test which we should have Tuesday. So, right now if I understand correctly my cancer was caught in the early stages and I think it is stage 1 or 2. I will clarify at my appointment on Tuesday. Regardless, it is all a good report but I will have some intense chemo because of the tumor grade. We will find out about my treatment plan when we visit the oncologist on October 31st.

Thank you for your continued prayers and words of encouragement. We are ready for visitors for all you locals. Just call before you come and be ready to play!

Recovery

2007-10-18T09:56:00.001-04:00

Good morning! I'm now 2 days post-op and doing well. I'm still in pain but nothing that a little Percocet can't fix! I can't move my arms very much so I'm moving a little slow. I feel good so I'm having to force myself to rest and let others help me. Heather (Joel's sister) and Isabel (our niece) arrived yesterday. Ella is so excited to see someone her size.

We are rejoicing in the good report that my lymph nodes are cancer-free!! I have an appointment with Dr. Haines (plastic surgeon) Monday to hopefully remove the drains and begin the tissue expanding. We will find out Friday the final report about the tumor. They will stage my cancer and the results will determine the type and length of chemo I will receive. Again, thank you all for your prayers! By the way, in case you're wondering, I did chop off my hair. I knew I wouldn't be able to lift my arms to fix it and I love this new style. We will be posting more pictures over the next few days of the "Cousins," so make sure to check back. God bless!

The Morning After....

2007-10-17T07:47:00.000-04:00

Good morning to all! I just got off the phone with Lisa and she is doing so well! Last night she had a little pain, and her meds were able to take care of all of it. I asked how she was feeling and how all of it went...She's feeling very well and optimistic. She said that her nurse was a Christian and was so compassionate with her before she went into surgery. Her doctor also mentioned that she must be 'someone very important, because I was called especially to come to another hospital for her..." .

God is just SO good. Lisa will be going home in the next hour or two. Please pray for her as she begins this journey to reconstruction and recovery.

Lisa said that she definitley could feel the prayers of all of you--and is convinced that your prayers are what made the difference. Thank you for your faithfulness in that. Please continue praying...

With gratitude,
Candice

Just an hour after surgery update.

2007-10-16T18:00:00.000-04:00

Lisa made it through surgery with flying colors. At this point, she is about to be moved from recovery to her room. The cancer did not spread into her lymph nodes....PRAISE THE LORD! Please continue to pray for her and her family as they begin this journey.

More updates when I hear from her husband and her later.

Thank you for your prayers....

The Day

2007-10-16T07:56:00.000-04:00

We'll the day has arrived. As I think of today and the long road of recovery, chemo and reconstruction, I see her face. She is the reason to fight and fight hard. I promise her I will do that. Ella is such a joy (what a name that fits her)! I know the minute I begin to feel sad I can look at her, she'll give me that 2-tooth grin and the joy will come!

Yesterday, my friend Rebekah gave me the scripture passage Zephaniah 3:17. It says, "The Lord your God is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." How wonderful for me to remember God is with me and I can rest in Him. He loves me so much that He "delights" in ME! I pray that as my family and I go through this journey, God will be lifted up. I am His child and I can't do this without the strength that comes from Him.

So that's where my mind is this morning. I have peace. I feel so much love and support from all of you. Your words of encouragement have been wonderful. Most of all your prayers have been appreciated and greatly needed.

Today my surgery will last approximately 5 hours. Our friend Candice will be posting an update this evening once Joel can see me. Please check back later for that. My parents arrived last night to help and Joel's sister Heather will arrive tomorrow to stay for 10 days. She will be caring for Ella while I recover. She is bringing her daughter Isabel so I'm sure there will many pictures of the cousins to follow. And here we go..........

The Party

2007-10-09T22:31:00.000-04:00

Once again Joel and I are overwhelmed with all the love and support. I love that I've heard from people I haven't seen in years and many who we have never even met!!! We feel so encouraged by all the prayers.

I'm sure you are wondering about the picture. In case you don't know, I work as a nurse in a high-risk labor and delivery unit. I've been with most of these girls for about 4 years now and they have truly become like family. It's amazing how well you get to know people when you are having the 2:00 AM talk to keep you awake. We all thought it would be fun to celebrate my upcoming surgery. Yes,the cake says, "Goodbye Girls." I will miss everyone while I am on my leave of absence. I love you guys and I promise I will call when I need you!

Today my surgery date was set for next Tuesday the 16th at 11:00 AM. I will be having surgery at Palmetto Baptist for all you local people. Please continue to pray that my lymph nodes will be cancer free.

I had the opportunity to walk in the "Walk for Life" this weekend with several of my close friends. The walk is a fundraiser for breast cancer research and all the proceeds raised stay in the Columbia area. We walked with about 11,000 people. My wonderful friend, Debbie, made pink shirts for us all to wear and mine said "Future breast cancer survivor." I felt so comforted to know how important breast cancer is to so many. There were so many beautiful breast cancer survivors there. Next year when we walk, I will proudly wear my pink bandanna that is reserved for the survivors!

The Journey Begins

2007-10-06T15:24:00.000-04:00

"Lisa, it's cancer." Words I never thought I would hear. I'm only 29... I have a nine month old...You must be wrong! So here we are, 2 weeks after my diagnosis. It is amazing how one small lump can change your life. We've seen all the doctors, had all the tests and surgery is scheduled for next week. We feel like we have lived a whole year in 2 weeks.

I found a small lump several weeks ago. I am still breastfeeding so I just thought it was a clogged milk duct. It didn't go away like they had in the past. I worked with my doctor one night and she felt that I should have an ultrasound. During the ultrasound the radiologist was concerned about the lump which is less then 2 cm in size. They performed a biopsy 2 days later and I got the call while we were in the grocery store. Joel immediately went into action and called everyone we could think of to ask them to pray. Dr Risinger (my OBGYN) promptly started making calls and appointments. Over the next week we met Dr. Parker (the tumor surgeon) and Dr. Butler (the oncologist). These doctors and nurses went above and beyond to help make this process bearable.

After talking with the surgeon, oncologist, geneticist, counselor, and breast cancer survivors we have made the difficult decision to have a bilateral mastectomy with reconstruction. (For all you non-medical people...a mastectomy is the removal of the breast including the tissue). After the surgery I will also be receiving chemotherapy. This decision, although very difficult, is best for our family and for the many years to come. We have learned that the cancer is localized to my left breast and an invasive tumor caused by estrogen. So, we pray that by having surgery we will eradicate the risk of ever getting cancer again. We are asking everyone to continue to pray that the cancer has not spread to my lymph nodes. We will not know this until the day of surgery.

Daily, Joel and I have been overwhelmed by the love and support from all our family and friends. God has given us both "peace that passes understanding." It's obvious that the prayers of the faithful have brought the peace. Yes, I'm nervous about the surgery and the chemo and the long recovery ahead of me. But, as my surgeon said, if I wasn't nervous he would worry. At least I am fully aware of what's about to happen. Joel has been my rock. He has literally picked me up off the floor and helped me find the strength that I need to keep going. Life must go on. We have to continue for Ella Joy. She is doing fine by the way. We suspect she senses something is up. She actually has been sleeping better than ever these past few weeks!! We've posted some great pictures of her so check them out.

We will be using this blog site as a communication tool for all those who are praying and are concerned with our progress. We will be sharing our ups and downs and of course some pictures along the way. Our blog will be updated several times a week after I have surgery. We hope that this can take the place of phone calls as our days will be difficult at first. Please feel free to leave words of encouragement for our family. Many people have asked, "what can I do to help?" Over the next few months we will need lots of prayer, babysitters, meals and words of encouragement. If you are wondering why flowers are not included, the answer is.....they die.

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